waiting game

I got a call from the visit mediator on Friday, but of course I was working so she left a message. I called back and got her voicemail. But this means that once we do connect that supervised visits between the wee girl and her dad will start. 

I also got a letter from social services about the application for child support enforcement that I filed so that he has to pay monthly support, rather than not being legally obligated. I have to fill out some forms & get it turned back in ASAP to get that ball rolling for real. 

School is back in session for the wee girl and it's all online due to COVID. She's studying with a friend of hers from her old daycare, which was a HUGE blessing. Last week (the first week of school) was rough, but we got through it. Yesterday she had a meltdown on the way saying she hated how it was "all talking" and no time for coloring or quiet reading. There are breaks scheduled throughout the day, but it's still a LOT of being on Zoom for a kid. She mentioned having a headache yesterday and woke up in the middle of the night with a headache last night. 

I feel like I'm not doing enough. I need/want to triage my life and list all the things that HAVE to get done versus the things that NEED to get down so I can settle my brain. My anxiety-induced insomnia is back and that's just one more thing that I feel stressed about. 

I have a job interview tomorrow via Zoom. For a position that pays a minimum of $5K more than I'm making now, and up to $7K more. It would add a 30 minute commute daily each way, but gas isn't that terribly expensive right now. We'll see where it goes I guess. 

Right now it feels like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop again. But then again, by the time it does it'll be the full pair and I'll be done.